a new day

Just as suspected, the gloomy mood didn't last, and today, the world is a little brighter place. I hate that unexpected slip into the dark places, but alas, it happens.

A talk with a good friend, a great glass of wine, and some sleep are good remedies, should this ever happen upon you! It's something like making your own sunshine, even when the clouds still loom over the horizon.

clouds in the road

sometimes it is hard to be the momma bear, being the shoulder for everyone else. It's not that I don't have the words or the time, but today, I'm the one that needs the support.

The world is a dingy grey color today, not black, but somewhere I can feel very alone, and sometimes, a bit useless.

I know that tomorrow, or even the next day, I will be back to my old self, full of cheer and encouraging words. The sun will shine, and I will once again realize how lucky I am, and be overwhelmed with thankfulness that my life is simple and at times, drama free. But for tonight, I will indulge just a bit, and be bothered by things that I normally don't think much about.

*my bed seems really lonely with only me in it

*I'm staring 30 years old straight in the face, and wonder what I have to show for it

* I haven't slept well in a while, because I feel a but unsafe in my house

thoughts from the corner of my mind

I believe in you
I believe that you will see the situation clearly, even if it's not today.
I believe that you are the great person I see underneath the pain and the uncertainty that plagues you today.
I believe that you are trying to fill a void that is painful, that makes you question how the rest of your life will turn out.
I believe that we have time. I believe that you can keep looking for something to fill that void, but that I will still be waiting to hold your hand. Don't look for other things too hard, I don't want something harmful to you making you forget.
I believe that you will see the truth, that you will see the worth that I see, that you will let yourself love again.
and when you do, I will be there