and it's that time again

How did it get to be thanksgiving already? I'm on the verge of a day of eating and visiting with the family, and taking naps, and picking at left overs...all the things I love about the holidays. *sigh* I am thankful for many things..mostly that I am at my mom's house, curled up on the guest bed, with my dogs, watching Steel Magnolias. I am thankful for the year that I have had. I won't list all the things that I'm thankful for..too cliche, but I hope that your holiday is something that makes you stop and think. I hope that you are surrounded by people you love, and that you have enough.

happy holiday

Merrily We Roll Along...

So, I'm driving home Sunday night. I'm not in a big hurry, but I'm moving along. My mind is preoccupied with the 25 things I need to do when I get home.
Then I see it. Its a car. Its an early model convertible, with 2 white haired people in it..and its going really slow.
Damn it. And on a 2 lane.

I realize that they are out for a Sunday drive, enjoying the open air, maybe something classic on the stereo, and enjoying each other. Its almost dark, and I haven't the heart to ruin their Sunday cruise with my headlights directly behind them. To avoid tail-gating them, now I'm driving 30 miles and hour as well.
Great...
But then something happened. I let all of me slow down. I'm normally the one reminding you to take a look around once in a while, make sure you aren't missing the journey in search of the destination.
I had to be the one reminded this time...
With the summer upon us, there are many opportunities to enjoy the journey. Maybe that's what "The Fork in the Road" is..a look at the journey while en route to the destination.
So, take a look around. Find a local farmers market, if you can, and smell the fruits of summer. Lay by the pool, with plenty of sunscreen, and feel the sunshine. If you live in Fort worth, catch the free fireworks show from the Botanic Gardens every weekend through this month. If you aren't lucky enough to live here, find something that makes you stop, and just breathe in life a little.

when I think of you (both)

Sometimes, it's a song. I hear it on the radio and I stop, catch my breath, and mouth along with the words; I don't have the heart to sing the words out loud. In one refrain, I am transported to another place, with warm sunshine, cool waters, and contentment. Somewhere between the lines that rhyme, are the stories that we wrote together.


Sometimes, like today, its an old friend asking how you are. He doesn't know...so I tell him that you are great, that life is always a surprise, and that's the way we like it. He says to tell you "hi", and I promise to do so.

Okie says hi.

question of the day

..I don't sleep.
...I don't eat.
...I cry now and then.
...I walk around my house.
...I get dressed up and listen to people tell me "we will consider you"
...I question who I am and what I know.
...I wonder what tomorrow brings

What am I?



Just another unemployed american

random things

You know you are getting older when carrying an umbrella on a rainy Friday night seems like a smart idea, not a detriment to looking cool!

They have books on the History of Farts, but nothing on "How to Be Sure You Aren't Wasting Your Life"

Most days I hate Facebook. Your drama is so much more important to you than it is to me.

something familiar

I know it has been too long, but as always the road has taken some twist and turns. Like any good navigator, I am back on track, and ready for the next roadside attraction!
I hope your trip is going great!!!

doh

There are times when even I do stupid things. I have a feeling that it's not a good idea, but I do it anyway. One of these days I will learn to listen to that little voice. Until then, I will keep shaking my head at myself for just being stupid. Luckily, I'm ok this one, and I will be in the not stupid zone soon!!
I think we should throw a party when I get back to feeling smart again! What kind of decorations do you use for that?

small thoughts

I should be inspired to write something, I have so many things on my mind, but I also have alot of things on my plate as well.

So until I have more time to visit, I leave you with this....

yeah, yeah

not that Miley Cyrus EVER crosses my mind for more than 20 seconds, but in my daily internet catch up, I actually read an article about her.
That article was good enough, and the additional videos were entertaining enough, I thought I would waste a whole post on her. (but if you read it fast enough, it won't take more than 30 seconds of your time!)

check it

Serendipity

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

This singular definition can sum up my entire life up to this point. When looking for something, be it the idealism in my post collegic years, the chance to prove that I was the person I knew I could be, or taking necessary steps to survive and pay the bills, there are always the good things along the way that make the journey as great as the destination. Today, I know I am where I am suppose to be. My life is just what I was looking for.

I can't wait to see the things I wasn't looking for.

so I'm a Monkey

I found my Chinese horoscope..I'm not sure I like it..I sound like a flighty, selfish party animal.....


The spunky Monkey is the original party animal! Charming and energetic, Monkeys crave fun, activity and stimulation. They truly know how to have a good time and can often be seen swinging from one group of friends to another, attracting a motley crew in the process. Always upbeat, they are considered minor celebrities in their circle thanks to their sparkling wit and that rapier-sharp mind. Perhaps surprisingly, Monkeys are also good listeners and tackle complicated situations with ease. This Sign's natural curiosity lends it the desire to become knowledgeable on a broad range of topics. Monkeys have a show-off side that loves nothing more than to dazzle their pals with all they know.
The Monkey tends to be rather accident-prone due to a certain lack of very high morals. This Sign's first interest is pursuing its own pleasure; this is not a malicious interest, it's just the way the Monkey is. However, this kind of carefree self-involvement can lead to all kinds of scrapes. In love, the Monkey makes a fun, exciting lover -- but one that may have the potential to stray romantically. The good news is, the Monkey’s glib manner and witty repartee can often get this Sign out of a scrape. Perhaps not everyone will be won over by the Monkey -- but do you think the Monkey really cares? The Monkey's world, full of devil-may-care energy and revelry, isn't for everyone. Remember, though, it's not that this Sign is mean; it might just be a bit too curious for its own good. Monkeys often feel the need to try everything at least once, which can make for a merry-go-round of relationships.
The Monkey's love of self-indulgence can also lead to other types of trouble. This Sign may have limited self-control concerning food, alcohol and other pleasurable activities. It's party time all the time for the Monkey, yet when it leads to a monster hangover or a shattered heart (generally someone else's, not theirs), this Sign might actually show a touch of remorse. They won't flat-out admit the error of their ways, but at least they'll pull back and try to tone things down -- for a while.
Monkeys must try to learn to think of others ahead of themselves, at least some of the time. This Sign's world will be more complete once it realizes the world doesn't revolve around it.

my latest project

I know in the blog world, it can be a bit impersonal, hiding behind our anonymity, but this is something very personal to me. I recorded this version of the National Anthem just recently, and was very proud of not only the audio, but of the video that it was placed over (many kudos to the producer, as it was not me)

I hope you enjoy

a new day

Just as suspected, the gloomy mood didn't last, and today, the world is a little brighter place. I hate that unexpected slip into the dark places, but alas, it happens.

A talk with a good friend, a great glass of wine, and some sleep are good remedies, should this ever happen upon you! It's something like making your own sunshine, even when the clouds still loom over the horizon.

clouds in the road

sometimes it is hard to be the momma bear, being the shoulder for everyone else. It's not that I don't have the words or the time, but today, I'm the one that needs the support.

The world is a dingy grey color today, not black, but somewhere I can feel very alone, and sometimes, a bit useless.

I know that tomorrow, or even the next day, I will be back to my old self, full of cheer and encouraging words. The sun will shine, and I will once again realize how lucky I am, and be overwhelmed with thankfulness that my life is simple and at times, drama free. But for tonight, I will indulge just a bit, and be bothered by things that I normally don't think much about.

*my bed seems really lonely with only me in it

*I'm staring 30 years old straight in the face, and wonder what I have to show for it

* I haven't slept well in a while, because I feel a but unsafe in my house

thoughts from the corner of my mind

I believe in you
I believe that you will see the situation clearly, even if it's not today.
I believe that you are the great person I see underneath the pain and the uncertainty that plagues you today.
I believe that you are trying to fill a void that is painful, that makes you question how the rest of your life will turn out.
I believe that we have time. I believe that you can keep looking for something to fill that void, but that I will still be waiting to hold your hand. Don't look for other things too hard, I don't want something harmful to you making you forget.
I believe that you will see the truth, that you will see the worth that I see, that you will let yourself love again.
and when you do, I will be there

spring in the air

I thought spring was here, then snow arrives. I love Texas!

I love Texas in the spring especially. I've been back here a year this past month, and as I sit here this afternoon, with sunshine blazing through the open windows , the dogs playing in the yard, I think back at what a year its been. It has been a busy one, getting establisthed, starting a new life. I'm now on the course of slowing down a bit, enjoying more margaritas on patios, and more cookouts with friends.

I start a new job tomorrow, one very simliar to the one I've had all this past year, just a different place. I am excited about more money, new opportunites. I will get more time to ride my bike, which I love to do, more time for a life.

My birthday rolls around this weekend. It tends to be a time of reflection, time to make sure life is on the course I want, and to access what needs to be changed. I seem to be starting off rather well, with a better job in tow, and a great Texas summer ahead!

Welcome 2008

How did the new year get here already? I just looked up from working 7 days a week, and damn if it ain't January. I'm trying to keep up on the voting habits of people in New Hampshire, enjoy this crazy warm weather we had the last couple of days, and I' ve joined the ranks of Bicycle Greats like T-Bone, and now I have 2 wheels of exercise and entertainment. OOO, I LIKE IT. More on that later.

There's been what my grandad calls " a little math in the family..you know a little adding, a little subtracting"


Gertie's adopted sister, LuLu, went to live with a really nice family over the holiday.
She and Gertie weren't getting along too well, and I can't have that. Gertie is my girl. So LuLu has a nice family with some kids and a little life in teh country. Meanwhile, back in the city, this is my new addition ------------------------------------->
That would be Ruth Ann. Her and Gertie are like peas in a pod, and that makes me happy.

With the home life in order, I have taken up riding a bike. Oh, it's not something ambious like marathons and the like, it's just rides in the afternoon, since it's much like Spring these days. Besides, exercise never hurt anyone!
Mom and my stepdad have also joined the peddle pushers, and they ride together..aww how cute.

Well, heck, Happy New year all. Hope your holidays were a blast, or at least tolerable.
We'll talk more later!
Love ya, mean it!

Giving Thanks

Happy Holiday!

Time Change, Time for Change

Where did the year go?

Once again, we get an extra hour to fill with things to do, mostly holiday shopping for me right now. Yeah, I'm that girl. I will have all my shopping and wrapping done by Dec 1st, with the exception of baked goods. Cause really, nothing says happy holidays like stale cookies!!! I've been that girl for years. Spending time in radio, you know that December is a busy month with charities, and christmas parades, and holiday parties. This will be the first year I don't have to worry about walking in christmas parades in every town for 30 miles and throwing candy at poor unsuspecting children. This year, freezing my ass off for the sake of ratings had been replaced by bring cheer to others by way of holiday parties that are hosted at the restuarant. It's like a dream come true! Throwing parties in my place where I don't have to wash dishes, worry about the furniture, or run out of booze! Now, I can sit back, enjoy the holidays and "Merry Christmas to all!" Not really. Starting in less than a month, I will begin working 7 days a week. I have a feeling once Christmas actually gets here, I will be looking for the inspiration that makes my usualy holiday spirit flourish.

Before the frenzy of twinkle lights and garland, I'm trying to enjoy this great fall. I threw a dinner party last night, very small. 3 people, but it can be a dinner party with 1 person! Sitting outside, roasting homemade marshmellows, and laughing, trying to keep the puppies from out of the gooey mess I dropped...it was a good moment.

This still my weekend, so I've got a few things left to do.

Before I go, I thought a couple of pictures would be in order...

Gertie fast asleep, and with her new adopted sister, LuLu

three things you can't live without

Had to kinda think about that question...how broad do you make it?
I thought about cheesy answers, like my favorite red handbag, or Starbucks.

Then I thought about serious answers, like family and working transportation.

After careful consideration, I think I fall somewhere in somewhere in the middle.

Three things I can't live without:
1. my dog. She reminds me that things are simple, that daily naps are essential and rides in the car with the window down can be the event of the day.
2. music (not really a thing, but we'll go with it)
be it any form of music, music you listen to, music you make, or music you hear in your soul.
3. this one was a toss up. It falls somewhere between warm, gray socks in the winter, and a stanley thermos of margaritas in the summer.
just because both of those things are great!

what about you?